No Uterine Cancer... The Journey Continues

Praise the Lord! D & C came back showing no cancer. I see the doctor to make it official tomorrow. Tues. I will have my final reconstruction surgery. It has been a bumpy road the last few months but God has been there smoothing the path as I continue on. I am so blessed and thankful for all of my blessings.
Emily is doing better and coming off the IV meds and her and the baby are thriving. Another blessing and answered prayer.
My final surgery will be out-patient and should take about 4 hours. I will have my implant put in and the other side lifted to match. I am so thankful for the knowledge and technology God has blessed our medical field with. I look back at loved ones who have gone through cancer that did not have these options. Their battle was hard and many of them did not make it. At one time cancer was a death sentence. I pray that one day no one will have to face this dreaded disease because there will be a cure for it.
When I come home I will once again be limited for 6 weeks. Then I will be preparing for my 2nd grandbaby to arrive. I have so much to look forward to! My family is why I continue to fight and travel this road. I just give God all the praise and glory for seeing me through it all.
More to come after my surgery. Until then love to you all!

Happy New Year!

A new year has begun and the journey continues. There are some days I long to go home but I know God still has a plan. That just makes Satan work harder to get to me. For the last several months I have been so angry and it is because PMS has returned. It is hard not having to deal with it for over 5 years and then it comes back with a vengence. If Tyler Perry needed new material I could supply him with a new movie... Diary of a Mad White Woman. That is how hormonal imbalance feels... angry and sad at times because you can't control how you feel sometimes. I am tired of the hot flashes and night sweats. Hopefully with the D&C Friday we will have some answers since the biopsy didn't. We were unable to get past the cervix but on a good note all is fine up to there.
The rest of my reconstruction is set to take place the 24th of this month. I am ready to get past that also. I am not looking forward to the down time but I chose to do this and I believe I will feel more complete when I am done. It will feel a little like getting back some of what cancer took away. Sometimes I feel that is vanity speaking but somehow I feel it is what I need for me and no one else.
On a happy note, we spent Christmas with our kids and grandbabies. Emily went to the hospital and stayed a few days. She got a PICC line and is doing so much better. She even feels "Baby Cheeto" flutter around. We should know if "Cheeto" is a boy or girl next month. I am excited for either. We all spent Christmas together and it was great.
When we came home my Mom went to the hospital for 8 days with pancreatitis but came home this past weekend and is doing better. I am so glad she is better because my Dad went home 26 years ago on the 6th and that is a tough day. With everything I have going emotionally, having Mom in the hospital brought back all the saddness. It is easier now because on the 4th we get to celebrate Lydia's birthday. She was 4 this year and is such a joy to us. I also know I will see my Dad one day. Wayne and I also got colds for Christmas and after 3 weeks are finally feeling better.
As you can see, there have been alot of trials since I began my journey. When you try to let God lead you, Satan tries to detour you. I am so thankful that if I get off track God puts me in front of the right way to go. So until my next post I will continue to praise Him no matter what happens. Love to you all....

Cancer... Again?

This is a big question that I have no answer to yet. On Nov. 30th I went for my routine PAP and since there have been problems in that area the doctor is doing some tests. I had a suspicious ultrasound and it showed some thickening of the uterus and a small cyst (no problem with it) so it was decided to do a uterine biopsy. I had it done last week. The doctor was unable to get to the uterus but what he did get on the cervix has come back negative. That is one step closer to answers and a blessing. The next step is a D&C on Jan. 13th. Then we wait for the results. Why am I telling this? I promised that this would be a journey I shared so here is my bump in the road on that journey.
Today is my 49th birthday and I have had a lot of time to reflect on how blessed I am. I have a new grand baby on the way so I have a lot to fight for if it is cancer.  That is what I do... hunker down and fight. If not I will shout and praise God and continue on until time for me to go home. Either way it is what it is and I know God has a plan for it and will use it. After all, in my first post I asked Him to use me right?
As Christmas approaches I hope we can all put the things of this world on the back burner and realize what Christmas is truly about. A baby does change everything and I thank Christ for being that baby. Love and Merry Christmas to you all!

Happy Thanksgiving!!

Monday I went back to the surgeon and all looks well on the expansion. Now we let things heal and do the reconstruction after the holidays.
As I think about my life this year I know I so blessed. I have a home, food, clean water and all the comforts our country affords. I am thankful for all of this and for the men and women who fight to keep us safe so we can live in a free country. So many countries do not have the luxuries we have as Americans yet we forget what and who is important.  I am especially thankful to God who has blessed me with all that I have. Without Him I am nothing... but with Him I am everything. Thank you Father for your love.
Last but not least I am so thankful for my family. I have a wonderful husband, smart and handsome son, beautiful daughter, a son-in-law who I love as much as if I had given birth to him, a funny, beautiful, precious granddaughter and a sweet grandbaby due next year. Thank you God for them all!
Happy Thanksgiving to you all... Love and prayers from our home to yours.

She Who Wears A Pink Ribbon

My husband gave me the most beautiful bookmark the other day. This is what it says....

She Who Wears A Pink Ribbon

Some women face the impossible...
an internal battle for life
that connects them with
a strength they never
knew they had.
Each has an opportunity
to reach further than
she ever dreamed possible.

With the heart of a true survivor,
she sets the course of her journey,
expanding her horizons
to share her knowledge
with those around her.
Most of all, she serves as
a shining example
of how to survive.

Her constant prayer...
a cure in her lifetime.

For herself, her family
and her friends,
she wears a pink ribbon.

- Suzy Toronto

Thanks Wayne. I love you more than you could possibly know.

Final Expansion

I finished my last expansion today. Other than muscle spasms in my chest all is well. I am ready to finish this but it takes time. At least it will be finished by the time my new grandchild arrives :) Emily Daniel and Lydia are expecting and we should have a better due date on the 17th. I go on the 21st so that the surgeon can make sure all looks fine and then in a few months we do the big surgery and after 6 weeks I should be good to go. As Thanksgiving approaches I have so much to be thankful for. I am one blessed lady and I am so thankful for all God does. I don't deserve it but I am  humbled and thankful that He loves me anyways.

Expansion #7

I wish I could say this was the last but alas it was not meant to be. On a happy note when I go back on the 3rd I will only have 50cc's to go since I took 90 today. So the end to this part of the process is almost over. I will not lie to you... I hurt this afternoon. Between my fibromyalgia, arthritis and this expansion I am in serious pain. I started the day off good and even went to Paint the Town PINK. It was wonderful and the guest speaker was so inspiring! I enjoyed hearing her story.
Until my next entry ... thanks for the prayers and love to you all.